finally 1 day i reach home early... but im damn pissed off now!

only managed to sleep 1 hour plus last night. and this morning, i was scolded just cos my parents woke up later than me. wtf lah!

and i reached home, decided to sleep. couldnt get to sleep. and a short while later, my mother's alarm rang. so i got pissed off!

a few moments ago, i got scolded again. just because my mother threw my pants into the washing machine and now it is stained. so it becomes another of my fault. wtf!

there's no word to describe how i feel now.
after school ended early just now, i didnt want to come home early. but i had no mood to go find my blouse with a stupid laptop. and i couldnt find anyone to accompany me last minute. so in the end, i came home. the rare times i come home early, and i got scolded for nothing. do you know how terrible this feels... especially when my math results already suck like hell.


im tired - tired of life, tired of everything. all i want is just a break, is it really that hard?

this home is where i belong, yet i dont feel like this is the case. to be scolded for nothing... where no one understands how tired i am. where no one knows my presence. somewhere where i cannot fit in. i dread going home early...

today is not meant to be like that. we were supposed to celebrate my father's birthday in advance. im sorry i cannot be a good daughter. i wont be home early tomorrow, even if its your birthday. im just a disappointment.

no one is perfect.