been busy with SCHOOL, actually not really...
there's gonna be crs test later. pfp and cepa tests tomorrow.

yesterday's apchem practical was hell.
too much comments from the lecturer. BLEH!
could not do the experiments in peace...


mst in 19 days to come...
totally not prepared lah. HAI
but...
没有心读这科，很难继续读下去。。。
i really dont know how's my remaining 5 semesters gonna be like.
but 1 thing for sure, im not gonna be a chemical engineer or anywhere near this field in the future... even if it has great prospects and pays good.
my career will be something i like.
since the day we went jurong island, i felt i've made a very wrong decision.
i never wanted to work in such places and deal with such machines and equipment.
and poly life is really not as i had expected it to be.
REGRETS... but it's too late.

im gonna waste more time studying after i get the diploma...
but its worth it. afterall, chemical engineers put their health at risk.
and have to be on standby 24/7... not what i like.

somemore, i dont feel motivated to study to get a GPA of 4.0 and face the possibility of being rejected by NUS. getting that GPA is not even within my reach, and to be in such a scenario can just make one feel damn lousy.

chosen the wrong course...
chosen the wrong path...
chosen the wrong life...
screwed my life.

that's the problem with the education system here. you have to be RICH! be loaded with money. even if you fail your o levels here, go overseas and get a degree. you're RICH! so... this just shows how fair the country is... i dont like the stinking system.

but it's a fact...
so i shall just live with it.


ridiculous.